Do You Want To Go To Mordor......

I was chilling in the lobby with a few of my friends here at school, and we started watching Lord of the Rings. By taking part of this activity....I began to sing a parody I wrote over spring break last semester. It goes to the tune of "Do You Wanna Build a Snowman" Soooo I hope you enjoy this, try not to make fun of me to much.

Do you wanna go to Mordor
Come on lets go today
The wizard Gandolf is here in town
He's grey not brown
Hip Hip Hooray

We can take Pippin and Mary
And Sam Wise too
What have we got to loooooose
Do you wanna go to Mordor
It really has to be to Mordor
 (Fly away you fools)
okay bye

Do you wanna go to Mordor
We'll meet some elves along the way
Maybe kill an Orc or two
Does that sound good to you
and Gollum's cray

Oh look I see some Ring Wraiths
And Soron too
That is one scary dude
Do you wanna go to Mordor
It really has to be to Mordor
 (Fly away you fools)
okay bye

Frodo....I know you're in there,
The ring is messing with your head
You say take courage, and I'm trying to
I'll be right with you, until the end
I can't carry it for you, but I can carry you
That's what I'm going to do

Do you wanna go to Mordor


I hope you enjoyed this....I hope to get a video up of it on the youtubes soon. This isn't a normal blog post done by me...normally I am a little more serious, but hey..this shows a different side of me. Have an awesome day/night. x

Forgotten Post....

Where do I even start....This summer has been crazy guys. This past week has been pretty crazy. I am so ready to be back at school, back around friends, positive influences, and out of the house. When I first came home, I was like...alright...I have 184 more days until I go back to school, what can I do to make them go by as quickly as possible. I could get a job, I can work at the church, do odd and end jobs, sell some things...little things. I ended up working at my Mum's dog grooming shop. A little bit about me...I HATE dogs. As long as I can remember...we have always had dogs not like two or three dogs...I mean like eight to ten. We currently have thirteen. Take that, then I see like twelve to twenty dogs everyday going in and out of the shop, plus the boarding kennels we have at home. As much as I hate these four legged, furry beasts that slobber and pee on everything, I have been super thankful for them.

I catch myself on that last part, because sometimes I am not. I get angry, frustrated, I start to complain, and overall become super selfish. I loose sight of what I'm really doing. I have a job, I have an income, working for my parent I can pretty much get off when ever I want, I do easy work, I can provide. There are people who can't get a job, hold a job, people who may not know where there next meal is coming from and here, with a job and I am saying..."I hate this." how ungrateful can I be? x

Just a Spark

Imagine that your mind got stuck, stuck on a certain thought or image. Take that thought and image and replay it in your mind

over

and over

and over

no matter what you did, you don't want these thoughts

eventually, it feels like an avalanche...

to make things worse, add intense feelings of anxiety...

This is OCD. This is what I feel every day.

Background:

OCD is an anxiety disorder. It involves performing certain routines or habits repetitively. For many people it can be checking things or having certain thoughts. If these routines or habits are not done, it could cause a lot of distress and totally shatter ones daily life. The habits are called obsession. Trying to control these can become overwhelming and ultimately may end up controlling the person instead.

Background on my OCD:

The first time I remember showing signs of OCD was in fourth grade. I was in the art room sitting with a couple of classmates at the table. I remember looking at the box of coloured pencils in front of me and saying...."That doesn't look right...this bothers me." I remember pushing the thoughts back until I had a tear rolling down my face. I started to "fix" them, to put them in a way that made them "feel right." After that, everything else was pointed out to me. I would get made fun of for counting my steps while walking down the hallway making sure to end on a safe number, or counting while washing my hands. This continued all the way up until I reached high school. 

I was diagnosed with a severe case Obsessive Compulsive Disorder my freshman year in school, not only that but I also had social anxiety. At first I did not believe what they, I could quit counting steps, I could quit fixing things, I didn't need things to be a certain way in order for me to carry on with my daily life. I sat in a room with a Doctor who made me do a bunch of tests. I was told to wash my hands once and sit down. Walking over to the sink I was like...."alright...I've got this...once...one." After I did that, I took my seat. We sat there in silence for a bit. It took about five seconds for my mind to start racing through all of these thoughts. "I didn't do it four times...four is my number...one is not a good number....something is going to happen because I didn't do this the correct number of times." I became squirmy and restless, the anxiety kicked in when I go up to finish my thing, I was told to sit down, to push through, to fight myself, this wasn't something that was needed to be done.

I didn't go back after that. I told my parents I was fine. I did my best to avoid triggers for my compulsions. It didn't work. I just told myself that over time it would fade, it would go away, I didn't need help. That is the biggest lie I have ever told myself. I takes a strong person to do that. There times where I do really good, but it only takes once trigger to send me back. If you are one of those strong people that have done this on your own......I'm proud of you, I commend you, you are awesome!!! I look up to you. x

Leader by Day, DJ by Night

 Hey lads/lasses, sorry it has been a while since I have posted a blog. I have been supper busy with everything that has been going on. Brief description of things these past few months. I have fourteen days before I go back to school, pretty excited. July...not entirely sure what went on in July. I pulled a quad running pretty bad so I cannot run for a few weeks on top of the pull calf muscle. So I'm out for the X-Country season before it even gets started. OOOOOHHH I had a chance to attend CIY with my youth group as a leader...we did some pretty cool things.

We got kicked out of walmart, my friend ate worms, I put on thirty-two t-shirts, did the chicken dance outside of a van. All the fun things. Not only did I do these things, but I also go to see how much these kids had grown in the time that I had left for school and it was heartwarming and an overall happy feeling. Some of these kids were a real pain and then to see them now it's like...dude...that's sweet. CIY in general was just really awesome, we talked about the story of Daniel, the first six chapters and one thing I had never taken into account the was the time.

Taking Daniel's age when they were taken captive...he was a teen. Then you have all the stuff that happens. Finally you get to the story everyone knows, Daniel and the lions den. Every lesson I have taught to the younger kids, every lesson I remember growing up, and even in illustrations I see, people picture Daniel as this guy in like his late twenties, early thirties. When you look at the time line of the kings and the events going on, Daniel is around the age of eighty when he gets thrown in the lion's den. EIGHTY! Take a moment and let that sink in. Yea. I also took away some valuable key points that I would like to share.

1. Your here is always God's there

2. Faithfulness is doing the little “usual” things in life

3. Christ may not always save you from the fiery furnace, but he will join you.

4. Humble yourself before God humbles you.

5. Allow yourself to be ruined by Christ in a beautiful way.

In other news....I ordered a new laptop top so I should be able to start setting up vlogs...maybe...depends. If I do them...let me be serious for a bit...it would be a bunch of nonsense....but yea.

So the other half of my title...DJ by night....tiz an interesting thing to say is it not? Makes is sound like I live a double life. Mysterious...or I just sound like a dork that thought that might be a cool title. We shall go with option two.

On Monday, I was asked to DJ a wedding for a person I had gone to school with. I was like “dude...yes! then as I hang up I get, “oh yeah...the wedding is Saturday.” Pressure is on now...I was not given a list, I had no idea what songs they were dancing to, or what they even wanted. Everything had to be done and finalized by seven on Friday. Tuesday and Wednesday I spent all night forming a list rearranging, planning orders, and searching through my library of music for wedding songs. I can tell you there was much coffee drinking and word scribbling. As much as I love this...last minute wedding things are not my cup of tea. This was the first time I had ever had the entire music for the wedding dumped on me, it was a little nerve racking.

In the end, everything turned out pretty fantastic! My late night stressing and coffee was totally worth it. I got to see two people join together as one with God and have a dance party afterward. I am so thankful for the opportunity to do that. Now I pretty much just sit and wait until I can go back to school. There are quite a few things I am looking forward to. Busy work, growing in knowledge, friends, positive community, and even maybe a special someone someday. That is all for now, stay excellent and enjoy what is left of summer!!!!! X